Why do we exist?

In philosophy class we discussed it. I never got an answer. what is the purpose? Why do i exist?

For the first 10 years of my adult life i just went through the motions, without a plan, just day to day. I enjoyed myself and wasn't thinking about how or what the next step would be. That got me through colleg and the next five years.

Over the years, i've made thousands of lists, affirmations, declarations, promises. What my hopes were for the future. What i wanted my future to look like, married at 25, children at 27. loose 50 lbs by my birthday. But I never followed through., never had an action plan.

Then around my 25th birthday, I decided I needed to start thinkging about the future.

A light went off, must have been all the employee training sessions i had given on writting SMART goals and putting a timeline i order to accomplish those "wishes" and "dreams".

The next ten years, I struggled aligning my goals with my current state. I knew what i wanted but didn't know how to get there. I would easily be distracted or convinced otherwise. Surrounded by constant self talk which was negative. "I'm not worth it?" "No one will love me?" "no one understands me" "I have to take care of others to be loved".

What will the next ten years be like. Am I going to make decisions to make myself stronger? Will I finally accept that I am worth it. I am strong, smart, sexy. To love myself first! To stand up for myself and what i want. Not to compromise or but myself on the back burner.

I've stumbled, had lot of fun and most of all learned about myself and I'm still figuring out what my purpose is.

My greatest lesson have come in the form of conversations. Sometimes I learned things immediately, others took me years to truly sink in and implement. Maybe I'm a slow learner.